What started out as a way to just enjoy some fellowship with online friends and build bonds beyond the screen has morphed into a whole NEW THING. I’m a little scared…. okay, I’m in the place commonly referred to as TERRIFIED.
What started as a get-together ministry that I envisioned having cute name tags and darling tablescapes has moved far beyond that and it was not my doing. I’m not even going to blame this on Melinda. It’s God. It’s been so evident that He has plans for this and we are just a place of trusting Him.
I can do ‘get-together’ — that is easy for me. I’m pretty good at it, too. I can rally the troops and plan the event, what I can’t do is plan a gIRL gathering and this is where God has me — right, smack dab in the middle of something I CANNOT do!
I am not good at this. I don’t know what’s next. Where will we have this gathering? Which weekend? What will we study? The Bible! I got that one right, but I doubt we can study the whole, entire Bible in one weekend, so we have to narrow it down.
We find the perfect spot and it’s too expensive or booked on every weekend we have available. It’s overwhelming.
And then there’s the ‘will they come’ part…. what if no one comes? What happens then?
See, I told you — TERRIFIED.
Not my normal place to be. And I don’t like it here.
Lord, why don’t we just go back and make this a fun, girly fellowship-y thing. We’ll have a blast and we’ll praise Your Name — lots. We’ll read the Bible and talk about You and everything. I promise. It’ll be great. Just wait and see.
But He wants more. He wants it all.
I’m in the middle of I CAN’T and this is right where He can and He will.
His perfect Will is where I don’t have to know the next step.
His perfect Will is where I don’t have to know the date or the place.
His perfect Will is where no one has to show up.
In His perfect Will we will find the scripture or topic He wants us to focus on.
In His perfect Will we will find the peace that surpasses all understanding.
In His perfect Will we will walk worthy of He who has called us out of the darkness into His marvelous light. (1 Peter 2:9)
Doesn’t mean I’m not TERRIFIED, I am — I’m just trusting God more than I’m trusting my own self. And that’s a good thing.
Where is God calling you?
Are you in the middle of an I can’t?