My latest high horse adventure was just the other day when a dear girlfriend mentioned she’d run into a mutual friend – we’ll call him J. And J’s not just any mutual friend, but one who’d been at the center of a church scandal. I won’t go into details, but J left the ministry over this.
When my girlfriend told me about running into J and how they’d talked, I huffed (as you can only do when you’re up on that high horse) and reminded her of all his failures. She went on to tell me about what was happening in J’s life and I huffed again and said “can’t believe you’re so gracious after everything that happened.” And then she said “well, I’m not one to judge after all we’ve been through.”
WHAMO! that hit me right between the eyes. My girlfriend was quick to say “not that you’re being judgmental.” But I was being judgmental, she was just being kind I was right up on top of my high horse thinking that because J’s sin was on display for all to see and hear and talk about that made him worse than me. It doesn’t. It just makes him a better target.
I don’t know J’s heart, but I sure know mine. I was acting proud and arrogant. I was thinking that deadly thought “Lord, at least I’m not as bad as J (or K or L or whatever letter your person is.)” I was full of pride and ego, I was minimizing my sins and maximizing the sins of others. Sin is sin. And I’m definitely not one to judge anyone – kind of like the pot calling the kettle black.
All have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.
All have sinned – that includes me why up here on my high horse. The Lord used the humble heart of my girlfriend to speak volumes to my spirit. I’ve prayed for a humble spirit and I’ve asked the Lord to make me realize when I’m being proud. He did.
Over the last many months, I’ve claimed several verses and worked to apply them to my life. One of these is
Humble yourself before the Lord and He will lift you up.
This past year has been a blast –it’s been one amazing adventure with the Lord and it comes on the heels of one of the most difficult times I’ve experienced in my Christian life. I’m just humbled that the Lord has blessed me in so very many ways and He just continues to do so while I’m acting all self –righteous up on that high horse.
Why is it so very easy to see the sins of others and not the ones that I commit? Believe it’s a full time job just asking for forgiveness from all of my mistakes – and I’ve made some big ones!
So for now, I’ll stay off the high horse and work on humbling myself before the Lord. He’s my joy and my strength. And when J comes to mind again (or up in conversation), I’ll remember to pray for him – and pray that the Lord is as gracious to him as he has been to me.
And I hope to put that high horse out to pasture — for good.